There’s a post-it note stuck on my mirror. I see it every morning when I stumble into the bathroom, my face crisscrossed with sleep lines, my cowlick asserting itself.
I see that purple note when I lean in close to the mirror to put on my make-up, hiding and highlighting.
And I see it again at night as I scrub that same make-up off, staining my washcloth, soaking the neck of my pajamas.
The note has been on my mirror since December 31. A friend who was checking in at my house while I was traveling for Christmas put it there. And every day, over and over, I’ve had to fight myself not to take it down
Not to crumple it and throw it in the trash.
Because most of the time, the note makes me uncomfortable.
Its words make me squirm and look away.
The note reads “You’re such a gorgeous lady.”
I don’t feel gorgeous most days. Because I have a secret.
Losing weight doesn’t make all of your insecurities go away.
In fact, you might even pick up some new ones.
I used to look in that very same mirror every day and feel sad that I wasn’t taking care of myself. Sad that I wasn’t healthy or strong. Sad that the person I could be was not the person I was.
Now, I look in the mirror and see a stronger, healthier body. But there are still so many layers of doubts and fears. My feelings don’t always align with my reality.
Actually, my feelings rarely align with my reality.
After more than 30 years of believing I am not worthy, I know it will take my spirit a little while to catch up with my physical transformation.
So, I’ve left that sticky note on my mirror. Because I need to listen to the words of those who love me, instead of the lies I’ve so long believed.
I hope there is someone in your life who leaves you a proverbial sticky note on your bathroom mirror.
What message do you need to hear today?